How is everyone doing? Is the new year treating you alright?

I went to the Calmando Qual concert yesterday, it was awesome. Two of the five members were not present, though the remaining three gave one hell of a performance! Good interaction with the audience, lots of humour and upbeat songs. I enjoyed it to the fullest, bouncing and headbanging and stuff ^^
I didn’t have anything to get signed but I did take a picture with them with my friends =D

Anyways~
My new year’s resolutions:
1. Buy less crap and clothes
2. Try to earn more money
3. Clean up my room more often as it’s a mess 24/7
4. Finish creative projects; I tend to slack off and end up not finishing projects I started on XD
5. Do better at school once a new school year starts.

Especially the saving money part will be important to me. I want to go to Japan during Winter holidays with my boyfriend and am very determined to save up money for that and celebrate new year’s eve there ^^  I want to buy lots of stuff and hang out there XD oh and score a fukubukuro lucky pack! You know, those very valuable limited lucky pack some shops stuff with sometimes very pricey items after new year for a relatively low price.(people in Japan stand in line for those since early in the morning/evening in the cold to get hold of these limited bags! Then those humble nice Japanese aren’t that humble and nice anymore once the doors open. Running like headless chickens clawing each other’s eyes out to get what they’ve stood in line for XD Ah.. looking forward to it, though I’ll probably go for those smaller clothing shops like those of s-inc

I’ve been spending a whole lot less already, kinda happy with that. I feel like I can restrain myself better and just click away items I find that I want to buy at first.
Just wanted to share some with you guys
Financial Crystal lucky phonestrap and their phonestrap lucky bag; here
These car seat covers!They are so cool and cute I just want them but unfortunately my bf would never let those in his car if he ever gets one XDD
And I think these shirts are so freaky yet cute
Click and click

But yeah I’ll only be buying necessary things from now on. I still need a new haircut and shoes. My hair is so long I look like a hippie. My shoes are all dead and most of them don’t match my clothes XD

Oh.. lately I’ve been watching Tokyo Kawaii much. It’s very interesting and mostly about the Japanese subcultures and stuff. Veoh has deleted most of the episodes And youtube doesn’t have much. Do tell me if you know where to get more of these vids!
Check it out!

It was awesome ^^

I just get amazed every time how much fun I have there. (since it’s my second time going to this event.) I didn’t plan on going as it was on a friggin Thursday and it was too much of a hassle, but my bf texted me that morning if I’d go and I just decided to go and that’s where hell before fun began xD (if you don’t feel like reading just skip to the next paragraph) Had to think of an outfit through the day while I had to go to the post office, to convenience store, calling work, doing school stuff, cleaning my room, convincing my mom to not lock the door that night, and having dinner, and changing/make-up in less than half an hour XD (forgot half of my accesories lol) hurry to the train station, good thing the train had a delay of 10 minutes, even though we missed the train in Amsterdam Central to the destined location on a few seconds.>__< finally we were on the location and bumped into another group of ppl who didn’t know where to walk to as well XD finally at the destined hall, we had to wait like 15 minutes because it was really busy at the wardrobe. Finally inside we saw there was just one person managing the wardrobe and on top of that we had to go up creepy stairs to get there XD  anyways~

It started off with a performance of Selia. It’s rather amazing hearing the vocals live and the live harp music. After that it got a bit more crowded already and a little “intro” began by two gothic lolitas; a little play and on to the dancing. Well it still wasn’t that crowded but few began dancing.
I was having fun at the candy table:

I did some latest finishing touches to my appearance and started to see more familiar faces. I think there was another lolita fashion “theater play” and after that some Tokyo decadance team members started to appear on stage.

“The Velvet Teu” on stage, with Selia on the right on drums

With pinpix(left) and DJ SiSen(right) got on stage as well
when kaoru watanabe joined as well they did such a silly dance XD

After that it was just some dancing again with Pinpix dancing alone on stage. I had a chat with some people and someone wanted a picture of my outfit XD which was weird, as it was a dude we bumped into when we just got off the train and seeing him in his full outfit

Selia performed again, and this time it was  the vocals over electronical music in stead of the harp. Quite cool though I could notice some were done listening after a few songs already. In the end Compagnie Vatra joined, a steampunk/cyberpunk guy doing some cool fire tricks XD

And so we continued to dance through the night

Takuya Angel (second of the left), fashion designer of the Takuya Angel brand the girls left and right of him are wearing it. SiSen wears some of it as well.

Adrien, the guy behind the whole Tokyo Decadance thing.
This act involved biting on cans and ripping them with his teeth. O__o The Velvet Teu pierced her own nose, and eventually her tongue and got it nailed on a wooden board lol. Adrien chucked down a whole bottle of chili sauce and after that a whole bottle of wodka… that couldn’t be good XD After that he glued his own hands on the table and let it “float” above the heads of the crowd XD They took off the wooden board of the tongue of The Velvet Teu and Selia “punched” it in two (they sawed the board a bit in the middle already to make it easier XD) one of the halfs hit Adriens head lol poor guy. After that Selia threw a melon in the air and cut it in half with his katana XD I felt like eating one of the halfs just because I like melons and was pretty damn thirsty that moment XD

and then my camera ran out of batteries. just my luck. so no pictures from here

We were doubting if we should leave earlier or not as the public transport was horrible. The timetables that were shown on the internet turned out to be wrong. So we just decided to go for the next train, get our coats in advance before it would get too crowded at the wardrobe again, took our time to chill a bit. Me and my bf had our pic taken, said goodbye and left. It was damn cold outside but good thing we left early because the bus seemed to arrive like 10 minutes earlier than we’ve seen on the timetables O__o. and then we got in some more troubles as driver surprised us with the fact that night-buses don’t take bus tickets, and everyone had to pay 3,50 O__o wth we didn’t know that, no one knew that. And even though we were short on one more, he allowed us on the bus anyways. Arriving at the Central train station we had to walk all around to the entrance and some big fat rat ran against my foot >__< the impact was so big I though my bf kicked against my foot but all of a sudden we saw something furry running towards the underneath of a van. damn it surprised me so much I screamed and even my bf was like “AH!”  XD

at the train station we had to wait another 40 minutes =___= public transportation sucks.

Got home at around 4.30 am XD I hope my mom didn’t notice as I said I’d be back between 2 or 3 am XD

But it was a hell of a fun night

and of course I can’t let you go without showing what I was wearing :p

dundundunnnnn~

got more (blurry, uninteresting, random) pics here on my photobucket

if you want to see them, or use any of the pics, contact me on noshi_cool@hotmail.com

I’m going to write a random blog entry real fast with random ramblings just because I feel like it, and please excuse any possible typos ahead! XD

I changed my music player, since my last one was outdated and I forgot the password to that stupid thing and mailing those guys didn’t help so there. For now the small selection of J-pop I can stand XD and yeah I know DJ Ozma is there and he is the wrongest guy alive but the song is fun. I’ll add a different player with rock and stuff ^^

picture spam!

Random stuff I bought online for cheap (there should be more, but don’t have a pic of it atm) XD First one is a purse, next some pendants, Stigmata wristcuff and skirt, and more pendants for my bf ^^
And this one because it was on sale on CDJapan and the only one left so yay, lucky me.
I should quit buying random stuff. . . yeah I should do that.

BUT I STILL WANT MORE! XDD

Hehe, I’ll go for a new haircut once I get my pay ^^ It’s really waaay too long, haven’t cut it in like almost a year or so, I feel like a hippie. I feel it crawling down my back o___o I’ll most probably dye it as well. I mean, I’m still young and all and once you’ll get a serious job and stuff, getting cool haircuts and wearing nice outfits isn’t allowed anymore =__= might as well take advantage of it while it still can.

So what more? I’m sick, having the worst headaches and dizziness. Dealing with an annoying skin irritation as well >__<And above that, I’m in the middle of my test week. So yeah I feel screwed even though I’m lucky my teachers agreed on letting me make half of the tests next week.

I’ve caught up with Soul eater, Detroit metal city and Kuroshitsuji. Next is Chaos;head and then my list of favorite anime is up to date! I just noticed that especially the first three I mentioned have this rather macabre/humorous/ironic/cool feel to them. Soul eater has some really weird story concept, but not unconvincing at all imo. Unique characters of which I would wish they were my classmates XD Detroit metal city is honestly the funniest anime I’ve ever seen. It’s just so exaggerating and unique. Don’t mess with DMC (and their fans lol). While watching xxxHolic did you ever feel like yuuko’s outfits were drawn by fashiondesigners or something? Some of the outfits in said anime wer just so gorgeous. Same with the ones in Kuroshitsuji. I’m watching my eyes out on these Gothic- Lolita/Aristocrats -like outfits. Definitely makes me feel like buying the collaborative clothes created by Black Peace Now and Atelier Boz based on this anime. take a look here

Speaking of fashion. H&M is known for having japan-inspired clothes but they are taking it to the max now:comme des garcons for H&M
Lol most probably won’t even know what I’m talking about but anyways. I sure am liking some of the clothes ^^ Rather pricey for my budget but it’s nice imo.

Events? I’ve celebrated the bday of my bf last week, I’ve seen quantum of solace in the cinema, another bday coming up next week which I’m looking forward to. Visual Kei band DIO will play on the 21st of November which I sadly can’t attend. Going to that damned location will cost me more than the ticket itself, damn you damn organisation with your stupid location XD.  Oh and Tokyo decadance the 27th of November which I obviously won’t have money for seeing what I’ve spent already this month. They announced it waay to late too. besides, it’s on a Thursday >__> too bad, I sure wanted to have one hell of a good and extravagant party again.

So as I’m typing, my mind is getting rid of the random and distracting thoughts, so I’ll be going back to studying again.

Have a nice day and thanks for reading through xD

Ah.. it’s been such a long time since I updated my blog lol.

I’m having fall-holidays right now for a week, but since I’m so behind on school stuff I’m going to need my time to catch up on stuff T_____T. So yeah, probably little fun time for me. Ah.. I want to go to concerts..  I had to miss the  MUCC concert on the 8th of October…

So.. I’ve going to school and work  now and then, and all goes well, though it could be better. I feel like I’m going to fail this year. I just don’t really feel as if I’m getting the support I should be receiving, or that I’ll even catch up on the subjects before our first tests. They told me I could do one part of the testweek and do the other part later on.

What’s new in Noshi’s interests?
- Well, too much anime, I’ve been downloading so much to check out and probably double-downloaded stuff already, so I think I’ll just go watch two or three series that seem interesting and watch other series during winter holidays or so.
- Stand up Japanese dramaseries. It’s about 4 virgin boys desperately trying to get rid of their virginity because everyone in their direct environment seems to have done it already XD
- Clothes! Lots and lots of clothes. The internetz iz evil!! It makes it so easy to find sites that sells the brands/clothes you like ^^ it’s bad for my wallet D:
- Livejournal… one of my new addictions since I came across it in search for stuff to spend money on. Me and my friend set up a buying/selling journal hehe. While it was meant for me as a selling journal as well, she uses it more for selling, though I’m just buying XD
- Pokemon… yeah.. I dug up my old gameboy advance SP (I just love this thingXD) and a colleague lent me his pokemon sapphire, lol. But I came to the conclusion I do not like to play it xD I mean, progress is going well, but throughout the whole game it’s just battling and battling and battling… XD and it’s like “pokemon x used confuse ray!!” *shows animation of confuse ray* “pokemon y is confused!” *shows pokemon y being confused* “pokemon y hurts itself in it’s confusion!!” *shows pokemon doing damage to himself* etc etc etc xD

Ah~ I really need to get some stuff straight / done before the end of the year. I just feel that if I won’t do that, I’m probably wasting the last half of this year =/ Though it has various reasons I have no influence in, I just feel like I need to take action just so I can at least say I did my best.

Talking about end of the year.. please look forward to webzine no. 2 !! Also, if you’re interested in contributing in ANY, if not, your OWN way, send me or monsta a pm Any extra help/contribution is most welcome! We’re especially searching for another editor and probably another proofreader. Keep your heads up!

Is what I said to my boyfriend, the person who’ve kept me company for the whole day, about four days straight^^. I woke up around 10 am, and prepared for physiotherapy. As I got there I hopped on the hometrainer and started “cycling”. It went fairly well, I even left my physiotherapist surprised of my progress. So I cycled about 1.5 km in 5 minutes. Fair enough, I didn’t get tired anyway. Then we started some exercises for my upper body. That didn’t go that well.. there is this stinging feeling between my shoulder blades on the left side when I make certain movements with my arms or shoulders :S I hope that will go away eventually, it hurts. All in all, the physiotherapist was satisfied, said I could cycle a bit if I feel like it. And I was satisfied as well ^^

And I finally had a good shower without all those weird plasters all over my back..  it felt great, especially compared to all the hassle we had to go through last week trying to wash my hair without making those plasters wet, which resulted in me sitting on a chair in the kitchen trying to bend my back as far as you can call it bending with the current state of my it xD damn that was drama, but I’m glad my aunt and mom took the time for it.

Then my boyfriend came and we went to the bank in the neighbourhood so I could deposit some money on my own account ^^ the remains of my bday money :3 We went back and I could hear my mother call my cellphone already, asking me where I’ve gone off to. She doesn’t like me going outside without her or without her knowing it.. *sigh*

I caught up on some Soul Eater episodes, had dinner, and decided on what to do for the evening. So I decided that I’d let  my bf pick me up so we could cycle together to his home and hang out at his place after 4 weeks not having been there. My mother was not too pleased with it.. to say the least =___= she got all angry and stuff and started screaming that she doesn’t allow me to do so without even listening to reasoning. I’ve been in my room for a week now, 2 weeks since I got home. The doctor said I could cycle, and my bf would keep an eye on me, and it’s good for me to train  my muscles once in a while and keeping them flexible, but she would only keep on screaming the same thing and I just left =__= I didn’t feel like listening when the doctor gave me her OK, and when I just want to do something else but site in my room.

But it went very well. I just took it easy and cycled the least roughest paths. And after a long welcome of bf’s mom and sister and uncle (lol) I was in another trusted environment again.We just hung out for a while, watching a bit tv and stuff, then we went back again without any problems. Just that I got home and my mom scolded me again =__= I don’t think it’s about cycling or not cycling anymore. It sounds rather like she’s pissed because I ignored her. Well she ignored my reasonings too, and ignored the doctor’s advice too >__> I’m not going to sit still for 2 more weeks without moving and letting my muscles get all weak and stuff but meh.

Tomorrow I’ll just chill. Do some exercises once in a while.. I STILL didn’t receive my timetable yet.. the teacher in charge said I’d get it by the end of the week =_______=  So no school stuffs for me yet. I’ll just watch anime and eat chocolate or something @___@

The summer holidays are officially over.. but not for me! XD

I called school this morning, took me almost an hour since the right person I needed to talk to wasn’t available everytime. But I explained I couldn’t go to school probably over the next two weeks, and he said it’s ok, and that he knew from another teacher what’s up. So I sent him my email address and he’d send me the timetable and other information and stuff. Now, I know he’s a messy teacher, he used to be my history teacher and he’s a nice guy, just from experience I know he’s messy. So I really hope he won’t forget.

Wednesday I’ll be going to physiotherapy again. I’m going to practice cycling, hope it’ll go well so I can cycle again XD not that I’ll go cycle like mad when I’m able to, though. I still can’t sit for too long. 2 or 3 hours max, and then it’s laying down again. After the surgery I grew 2,5 cm, and lost 5 kilograms T__T all that hard effort gaining those kilograms.. gone! D: Now I’ll have to start over again and work harder too, since I’m a bit longer, I need to gain “normal” weight again.

I’ve been reading Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami. It follows a 15 year old run away named Tamura Kafka, and a 60 year old man that can speak to cats. I’m half way but that whole run away thing is starting to get boring now XD I’m determined to finish it this week though. I hate leaving books unfinished.

As for other entertainment. I’ve been watching gokusen from episode one, season one, and am watching season two now. Nakama Yukie is just too awesome. So natural and silly I just don’t like the second season as much as the first season though. It lacks something.. conviction? originality?

Ah.. there’s still so much to do about my room ;___; I have to find new spots for all that stuff that’s been piling up for 12 years. And going to buy myself some new manga very soon too xD Also I think I should finish my wall painting one of these days. I started it two years ago and it’s like 80% finished but never got the motivation to finish the last details..

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So why did  my surgery had to be AFTER my 18th birthday again? Right now I’ve been 18 years old for 23 days and so far it sux. I started physiotherapy yesterday, and have to come back Friday. It just popped to mind that in a few days some hell of a stack of bills will fly into my mail box. I never really took the time to look into my insurance stuff because I at least thought it would be before my 18th bday. And before I could even say nya, my room started to become a total mess because of that leak in the radiator. That room I’ve been living in for 12 years straight without a change, and in which I can’t even sleep now yet. I’m 18 and sleeping in my mommy’s bed <__< I’m afraid that I might get into some serious money problems if I won’t be able to start working again soon. I’ll have to finish the physiotherapy as soon as possible, have to try my hardest to get myself mobile again. Also I might get into all that school stress again, since I still have to contact “someone” from those teachers to tell me what to do with my current situation. I might have to skip school for the first week or maybe two weeks. I hope I won’t be missing too much. It’d suck to have recovered to go stress my butt out right away for school =__=

Tomorrow I have to go to the hospital again for a check up. I hope that’ll go well since I am still not able to sit for a long time. And those people are really good at letting their patients wait for a long time >_> Well at least I got an excuse to skip my shot against thrombosis then. They said I had to give myself shots against thrombosis for 6 freaking weeks. I hate those shots and especially since I have to do it myself. Those shots hurt like hell, and not because of the needle itself, but rather the fluid that’s in the injection. as soon as I can function like a normal person again, which I expect to be soon, I’ll quit the injections. No way I’ll be giving myself shots for 6 weeks.

Well yeah it seems that I’m not in a good mood today, just had to write it off, although this is just a tip of the iceberg of big nuisances.

I felt bored and all of a sudden some thoughts about my stay in the hospital arose.

So I mentioned few posts back that there were a lot of old people on that same department where I stayed. Well, there was this particular old lady lying in a bed next to me that was just so.. weird that I remembered her as that weird granny.

She had the looks of mrs. Fowl from Jimmy Neutron cartoon series XD but she also talked like that. First thing I remember of her is that she talks A LOT. And not to other patients in particular but usually through the phone. And then she always used to talk about the same things to different people. Everyday she had a new topic to talk about, it sounded so routine, everytime it was almost as if she was bragging about it.

I never talked much to her though, no kidding, because I was always staring at the  ceiling and once I could, I turned on my side so I didn’t feel bothered with the rest of the room. But her talks about how they heated up her blanket, or what she saw on tv, or what happened to her diaper kept on going the whole day long. I totally got frustrated when one day she started gossiping about me like : “that poor 18 year old girl next to me that had 3 surgeries and that is always so quiet, but I won’t say a thing about that because she might get frustrated”. So rude, I thought. You don’t hear me talking to my friends about “that foul mouthed granny next to me that does nothing but calling people and letting her diaper overflow” either. XD

The structure of her sentences were always the same throughout the whole days she got called. Always like: “I can use my left hip for 100% and my right hip for 10%!” and “Yesh yesh, and they have this device that is green, with soft lining in a U-shape and handles I can hold my hands on so I can actually lean on it.”
But that’s just how it is I think, because she never did anything else the whole day for 6 weeks, she probably didn’t have anything else to talk about than those same topics all over again. I’m sure the people she called enjoyed hearing how she was doing. I was hearing it 30 times a day

When she heard she was going to be transferred to another hospital for rehabilitation, she freaked out. Because she was “always a control freak, I got that from my father. All the stuff on the closet always have to stand in the same order and now I’ll have to mess that up.” She had to call everyone she knew, and I  mean everyone. So the whole day I heard nothing more than: “I’m leaving this place tomorrow between 10 and half pas 10. I heard that today around 12 o’clock. Yesh yesh very unexpected, I panicked when I heard it, because I won’t be able to pack my own stuff as I want to, but luckily there was this lady that is the nurse of a good friend of mine, and she offered to help me etc”

She felt so home there that she wanted to donate 150 euros to the nurses of the department. “as a gratitude for your kindness and your help and always being so patient with me”. Well in the end it was 50 euros because they refused to take that much money as a gift, and she finally disappeared with the ambulance staff.

So it finally got quiet. It was the same day as my leave would be though, I enjoyed the silence and took a nap before my mom and aunt would come pick me up. Writing this I hope I can get her out of my subconsciousness, I think I got brainwashed a bit because of her repeating and repeating and repeating and repeating…

I’m home at last. I didn’t update for a while since I decided to let my bf take away my laptop from the hospital to prevent it from being stolen.

The surgery went pretty well. It took them a few hours to take out all the metal from my previous operations out of my back, but that went well and with care so I’m glad about that. Then they attached some longer pieces since my previous ones were too short because I had grown. I heard my wound started leaking again for a while after they were done, and that I lost like 4 litres of blood. But in the end I must say they did a pretty good job And I can happily say that my back is STRAIGHT again^^ (and that I;ve grown some more cm which would probably make me one of the longest chinese girls XD

For the ones who still don’t know what I’m talking about, they discovered scoliosis when I was around 12/13 years old, and had two surgeries for that when I was 14. After a while it grew weird again because I had grown again.But my previous surgeon didn’t want to do it over again because he said it was too riskful and not possible to correct so I went to another hospital for a second opinion…. which left me waiting for 10 months or so >__>  and messed up a lot before that time but oh well…

I recovered rather fast and didn’t want to know of morphine very soon after the surgery too. I’m home now and going to be recovering for a few weeks. I’d like to thank everyone visiting me and supporting and stuff ^^

I’ve got internet !

I had to bring my laptop with me to check if the hospital had internet and I’m so happy it does XD this makes my stay here so much better. Tomorrow is my surgery, but I’ll try to keep this blog updated.

For the people I know they are reading this: I’m in the Erasmus MC in Rotterdam. My phone is allowed to be on, visiting hours are from 15.00 to 19.30 to avoid hindrance for the other people on my dorm, there are not more than two people around, but it should be ok if people take turns with going into my room. I’ll probably be on the “Ortopaedie” department, but tomorrow and day after tomorrow I might be on the intensive care, so if you visit, don’t come before Sunday XD I’ll probably be stoning out from full narcosis, that’s why.

Noshi edit 1: I’m in a room with old people XD This is like.. my worst nightmare, but as long as they won’t bite (with our without teeth) then I hope I can bear with it XDD
Also thinking of hiring a TV after my surgery.. but don’t think I will be watching the olympics during my stay =/ I think I can watch that online anyway too XD

Noshi edit 2: it’s 11 in the evening, and I’m about to brush my teeth and put stuff away in my locker. Today a new guy came in in the afternoon. He looked uhm.. bloody. He left but is now here again and it seems like he’s in a lot of pain O__o. Also I can already hear old people snoring.. thank god for mp4 player XD

So.. take care everyone, if I don’t post here anymore, I’ll probably won’t be posting again till Sunday or so.